Well, soon after we celebrated Grayson's first birthday, Matt and I began thinking about beginning another adoption. I know - we are crazy. We really wanted Grayson to have a sibling growing up and we'd love even more for them to be close in age. Any couple adopting knows how long the process can truly take and the uncertainty that comes along with it. Of course I began praying that God would show us where to go next. We were really open to anything domestic or international. Of course Taiwan is so near and dear to my heart that I wanted to get on a plane and head there right away :) We knew that we could not return to the orphanage Grayson was from and ask for another child so soon after since we hadn't even had Grayson 1 year yet. There was no clarity from God at all. Just questions, thoughts, and what if's. We didn't talk about it much for a little while and then - BOOM! One day Matt came home and said he had been approached at school by another colleague. They were asking if we would consider adopting a little boy? Just like that....we were shocked. How could it be that easy? Someone came to us??!! So we began praying hard and asking questions about the situation. After about 1 month, we came to the realization that it wasn't going to work out for so many reasons. I don't know why, but I never had a peace about it.
So another month goes by and I felt like every day time was slipping away. I began looking on children's listing sights and getting emotionally attached to pictures (adoptive moms know what I'm talking about). :) But nothing seem to fit. In October, I noticed some things were "not quite right" with me physically :) I honestly wanted to take a pregnancy test for about a week and kept talking myself out of it. Finally, once I had prepared myself emotionally, I took it. It flashed (+)...............and the world stopped. I was so shocked that I didn't even tell Matt until the next day. Not that I wasn't ecstatic, but I needed to comes to grips with it before I could tell him. So the next night Matt got home really late and helped me put Grayson to bed. I had printed out a sign that said.......
Matt puts Grayson to sleep and comes back out of his room. I stare at him awkwardly and of course he makes a silly face back at me. He says, " why are you staring at me like that?" I asked him if he noticed anything in the room to which he says, "no". He said, " If you re-arranged something I will see it tomorrow". I laughed out loud. Nope, go look again. He said, " If you hung something on the wall I will see it tomorrow". Nope, go look again. He FINALLY finds the sign and continues to read it over and over and over again. He looked at me and said, "Did you start another adoption?" ---- now, this was actually a really good question as it IS something I would do. :) I told him I had not started another adoption to which he responded, " I do not understand what's happening then." So I had to talk him through the situation that we were expecting our own miracle in June! He said, " really? How do you know?".................ummm honey, there are signs that a woman knows :)
We began the journey of our first doctor appointments, bloodwork, etc where it was all confirmed. We got to hear the babies heartbeat the first week of November (which just happened to be the 1 year anniversary of meeting Grayson in person!!). Yep, one year later exactly. How cool is that!!? The doctor said the baby is due on June 14. Matt and I looked at each other in silence and then busted out laughing. I think we freaked the doctor out because, she asked if she needed to pick another due date :) We continued to tell her that June 14 is Grayson's birthday which freaked her out! :) I mean........what are the chances of that? Oh ya, 1 in 365.
My faith in God is nowhere near perfect, but I do believe we followed Him when he lead us to Taiwan and having Grayson and we have been so blessed ever since. His way is always right, even when we might not understand.
We look forward to welcoming a new little sister for Grayson on June 14 (or whenever she gets here!)
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